You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one Ill always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one Ill always love

Ill be there as soon as I can
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one Ill always love

Ill be there as soon as I can
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Ill be there as soon as I can
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

We all fought and he hit my head. I bang my head against the wall thrice and it bled. Well, don't we all love it that way?

Ya i'm a masochist. Tell me something new.

I wanna just die.

Do you remember your younger years when you and your friends played all sorts of fun games all day long? I'm sure you do. If there is one thing children know how to do, they know how to have fun.

Have you ever caught yourself observing a playground full of children having tons of fun as they run and jump and bounce all over the place and silently wished you could inject a dose of that childlike enthusiasm and exuberance back into your life once again? Well you can, when you believe you can.

If life is about any one thing, it is about being happy and feeling fulfilled. We can start living the lives we have always dreamed about as soon as we believe we can do it and more importantly, believe we deserve it.

Far too many adults have far too little fun and that is indeed a needless shame. If your life could use a little more fun, excitement and happiness (who’s life couldn’t?), you might want to consider playing a little game of "finders keepers."

You need to find the courage to live the life you have always dreamed about. The courage is there, you just need to rediscover it and put it to work for you. You need to once again find the magic that once made your life so very special as a child. These extraordinary, almost mystical powers are still hidden inside of you, you simply need to unleash them once again.

You need to find your unique place in life, that distinctive niche that enables you to be your best and do your best. When you begin passionately pursuing those activities that you love to do, you'll find your special niche waiting for you.

There are plenty of good times and good things waiting to happen to you, you just need to open up and let them happen. Once you find all of the fun, happiness and excitement life has to offer, you need to make certain that you keep these magical moments close to your heart. Wherever and whenever you find something worth keeping, you need to grab it with every ounce of strength you can muster and then hold on tight and never let it go. Find it and keep it -- what a super strategy for success!

Find something positive ... and keep it. Find something exciting ... and keep it. Find it – keep it. Find it – keep it.

You will uncover new opportunities, discover new horizons and have more fun than you ever imagined was possible when you play a little game of finders-keepers every day for the rest of your life. And of course, I'll try my new revelation with you guys, and let's all keep our fingers crossed that we'll totally succeed. Auf wiedersen people.

The week wasn't really smooth, with lots of impromptu situations to handle and stuff, hence I didn't blog much. Nevertheless, I enjoyed my Sunday with Jeremy! We went to Junction 8 to watch The Happening. Well, the storyline is weird. It sorta starts off smoothly but ends so abruptly, like a driver jamming the E-brake. Thought that was really bad, and it seems so apparent that the film content development people have totally ran out of ideas on how to end the movie. If you don't know what i'm talking about, think a primary school student's wonderful story ending with "I woke up, realising all is but a dream."

I wanted to post the picture of Jeremy and I, but haiz..blogger sucks, so I'll do it again next time. Anw, that's all. I'll see you...when I see you.

不必说前生是缘分，也不必说昨日是红尘。所有的承诺都只是那昙花一现，在爱与不爱的世界里，又有几人能遵守约定？

人总不奢求永远；不渴望明天；不贪图富裕；不堕落人生。想要一种踏踏实实爱的境界，想要一个人陪我数天上的星星；想要你依偎在我的身边，陪着我等待那晨曦的黎明。爱了，就不要说痛苦；爱了，就不别说无所谓。眼前，一切的一切都是你我今生的约定。约定着人生，约定着黎明。

一段时间的不见，你的眼里是否依然保留着你的笑颜？你是否还在向往明天？是否向往人生最高的境界？我依然孤独，在孤独的时刻，我在想你，等你。人生啊…在这爱的世界里，你为何要视而不见？为何要到伤心时，才会给我温暖，才让我懂得珍惜，才会让我躲在你的怀里偷偷的哭泣。

人生就是一朵幸福的花，在爱的海洋里滋润，在爱海洋里开花。在爱的海洋里结果。一切爱你的话语，在人生的长河里，化作一叶小舟，轻轻的飘过。瞬间，你那火热的唇，也许是我人生中最甜蜜的吻，留不住缠绵，留不住伤痕，留下的，只是那颗失落已久的心。

爱是寂寞的谎言。不爱了，就放开手。带着伤痕，走出爱的空间，让清风拂面，让大河清洗，让下一片雨淅淅沥沥，滋润心头，感恩上帝，等待着下一个世纪的你。

声音

茫茫人海，车挤人拥，来去匆匆。每一天，各种声音充斥着这个繁忙的都市、充斥着这个人来人往的小站。暂时告别了一切的吵杂声、引擎声、笑声、哭声、叹息声，我独自走进一条巷子。

高高的杨柳在巷子两旁排烈着，它们挺着枝垭，在危机四伏的大自然里点燃着生命的火把，引导着在森林里居住的动物。绵绵细细的与轻轻的敲着那堵围墙，“滴答，滴答”的响着，就像是送来久违的琴声。我慢条斯理的走到小街的尽头，那儿便是目睹我成长过程的小地方。走进院内，墙上开满繁星般的牵牛花，姹紫嫣红。它那五彩缤纷的小喇叭，好像正在无声的呻吟着“往上爬”，告诉我这一股股顽强的生命力。

声音也可以是无声的，声音是一种感觉，一种感情，而这些牵牛花让我听到了一股旺盛生命力的呐喊声。

一只猫出现在我面前，它那铜铃般大的绿色眼睛紧盯着我，轻声的一句“喵喵”，好像要向我传达什么讯息。

突然，它掉头往东边走，而我不由自主地跟在后面。“哑”的一声，黑猫把门给推开了。

我听到了油炸声，噼里啪啦的爆裂起来。见到我回来，便开始唠唠叨叨，我的舌头不知何故的却打结了。因为我很清楚妈妈所收的苦，很多时候都会听到妈妈咬牙忍痛的呼吸声，有切菜是割伤的，有被热油烫到的。我的心似乎被人捏紧，痛得泪几乎要流下。

我徐徐地走上楼，听到角落面的第一间房传来轻微的呼吸声，脑海里浮现银亮，苍白，灰黑三种颜色发丝层次分明的从上至下，这原本乌黑的三千烦恼丝，因为受不了岁月的折腾，已逐渐退色，脱落。但这花发的主人仍不堪折服于光阴的践踏，依然保持着一颗赤子之心。

常常也会听见爷爷一个人自豪的对着旧照片，诉说当年当一名海手的航海事迹。我站在梯旁，慢慢得听着，海的浪泼也慢慢地把我吹进自己的房间内。

听着外头雨水打着窗户，突然闹钟尖声怪叫起来，我伸出手，无情的把闹钟敲晕，让瞬间闷烦的耳朵得到一点清静。

冷冷的小窝星，一般落寞情愫不禁如雨后春笋般油然而生，好像心里在弹奏一首寂寞的歌。静静的，静静的，它好像在嘲笑我们一样孤单，一样寂寞。

寂寞奏着歌，围绕了我，我却享受了它。

这是二十多年前的事，先紧着东凄凉的房子已经空无一人。爷爷，妈妈，家人都不在了，心情沉重的我并不想哭。美丽的回忆，伤心的回忆，尽管如此，我还是想去聆听这个地方传给我的声音。

Kudos to Nick doing that to my hair! Andddddddd...i totally love it =D

P.S. i meant my stylist at Chapter 2.. xD

Now I am dulled, exhausted, indifferent, jaded, satiated, spent, tired, wearied, worn. All thanks to you, or mayb it's jus me and my way of doing things.

"Eh, if you like tt hor i will get pressured"

I'll be waiting, if you would call.

My new blogskin finally. It has been long overdue already. Thank God my archive came back. I was browsing through my 4 years of memories and a question popped up in my mind. What am I?

No qualms folks, but i've got the model answer already. I'm a 19 years old boy having a 22 years old look, 3 years old queer, 2 years old bitch, 3 years old slut and 3 years old fool. Anymore coming up guys?

Record breaking 5 jobs in 3 months. Can you believe it? Anw I'm like sick. A trip overseas would do so much good to moi I hope. If anyone's flying, take me along. It'll be a great way to fly. Oh, if I haven't mentioned, i'm enlisting on 12 Sep 2008. All farewell gifts will be gladly appreciated =D

P.S. J'adore Hippotamus

Whether or not I spoke, people think i'm a bitch. Whether or not i corresponded or involved myself in conflicts, people think i'm catty. So no matter what, i'm the root of all problems. If my absence makes things a fucking lot better, I'll leave. Quit trying to get your point across through other means except telling me right in front of my face.

I'm lonely. 6 days a week I get up and go to work to do a job that I am not very interested in. Right now it seems like I'm working towards a goal that wont give me anything. I find it hard to get up in the morning, and to fall asleep at night. It's not so bad during the day when I find things to keep me busy. I don't do anything when I get home except sit alone and go online. I used to look forward to weekends just so I can try to sleep the entire day away without having to get up and think about my life, but my current job doesn't allow me so.

I find myself trying to justify my feelings and thinking of what the future could bring. Maybe it will get better? Maybe not, I dont know what to do. I dress myself up as if looking better or being stylish will solve my problems but I know it wont. It's just that I'm still at the point where I don't know where I stand and uncomfortable with the way I am. It's like I've run out of things to constantly worry about and now I'm left with nothing to think about except how sad and boring my life is.

I'm socially maladapted.

"If my absence makes things a fucking lot better, I'll leave."

I just need to think of how.

There's this new strain of virus going around, making everyone feel cranky and hopeless, living each day without grit and zeal. I'm a sufferer.

A lot is going through my mind as I'm typing this. The days that passed, the minutes that ticked, something is always happening and I read too much into everything without fail. One characteristic of a Virgo, so I think what i heard is true.

Sigh. I can't carry on anymore. People say only cowards hide. Yes, I'm one.

Blogging now during my break time. So bloody stupid, imagine starting work at 1015 and break at 1540.

Watever man! Life without a job sucks. Life with a job sucks even more. I dun have any goals and i need one right now. Urgh.

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if youre mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if youre wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

Oh, I'll stand by you


--this song...spells affectionate..--

Sa(me), much.

I want to be this; I want to be that. I want to be everything in the world. I'm not très fou, neither am I très beau. I just want to be me, and I hope you'll like it.

My fa(me).

nicholas ethan lim: already 21, birthday falls on 11 September 1988. Realised that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue, a wonderful living side by side can grow, if they succeed in loving the distance between them, that will make it possible for each to see the other whole against the sky.

Tweeter Ti(me)!

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- New Denim
- Guccissima Belt
- Hot Pink Every
- Ray Ban Aviators/Wayfarer Square

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