One week has passed since I came back from China. Life in Singapore isn’t exactly that great as I had perceived back there. The statement that “people always do not cherish what they have at the exact moment” might be fitfully applied here after all, or perhaps one could say this is totally a perfect example of “the grass being always greener on the other side of the pasture.” It has been a week of socializing, catching up with friends whom I haven’t met and there is a discovery that though 5 months isn’t short, it isn’t long either. Time and tide just waits for no man. It just passes like the wind breezing across the farms.

Having to live together with people whom you thought you knew for two and a half years isn’t as we divinely fathom. Wherever you are, there is always people who might be jealous of you, or they just dislike your face and they are outed to make you fall (it’s not the closet we’re talking about here). They see the position you’re holding, they try to oust it. Upon reflection, things change rapidly or almost instantaneously when we return to our comfort zone. People are no longer as friendly as they seem; and that is probably because they acknowledge the fact that they don’t have to put on a false front anymore now they have all the backings they require.

As mentioned earlier, people are outed to make you fall, but have you ever considered those who deserve to be out? (And we’re talking about the closet this time round). These are the exact jerks all women loathe, if they haven’t, perhaps they are blinded by what they think they are seeing and they love it now. Do take note that time will reveal the truth, and the truth may not be what you want to hear (as quoted from Chuck Bass). When Rufus Humphrey told Lilian Van Der Woodson how much he still misses her over the years and how much he still wants to be together, I thought the truth and sincerity here is totally impeccable. 10 years down the road, I thought we could be even better friends, but it seems that this China thing showed how fragile our friendship is. The nonsense I put up with, the irritants I got over seemed to be no avail.

Put that all aside, meeting up with the old besties (still besties) is so absolutely fantabulous. Kinda stressed out now though.. I need to find a job by 1 Feb and I only have 4 working days left.