Sunday, July 20, 2008
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I'm so totally convinced that my forehead spells booty call. Time and again, I've attracted all the people around to call me when they need new boots. (Forget the failed pun)I've realised that things don't just happen when you want it to, and trying to defy the natural development process. You might have said that's way overdue already, but yeah i'm a late bloomer.
The past week wasn't great with many uncalled-for dramas. An unexpected misunderstanding happened on Thu when i wasn't in the right mood. It's about big J. Big J won't be reading this, but anyway.. It stops when i say it does, and i want it to stop now.
Booty call might just be the new sexy.
The past week wasn't great with many uncalled-for dramas. An unexpected misunderstanding happened on Thu when i wasn't in the right mood. It's about big J. Big J won't be reading this, but anyway.. It stops when i say it does, and i want it to stop now.
Booty call might just be the new sexy.
Are You Ga(me)?, 7:47 PM.
Friday, July 18, 2008
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I'll surrender my hopes and dreams.
Silly us no more;
Be happy.
You.
Silly us no more;
Be happy.
You.
Are You Ga(me)?, 11:55 PM.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
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Ironies are many in our life. They happen almost everyday in unforeseen circumstances and force us to make decisions sometimes, within minutes, can mean life and death in that particular predicament. It is such a big irony that two humans that were once so in love turn into enemies plotting against and verbally abusing each other to such an extent that one would never thought will happen one day. People living in bliss will never look at the fact that just one fateful day they might become your nemesis. Yes, now we’re talking.
The unforeseen future is something people describe as so fearsome, so direful, and so tremendously redoubtable. Before you say, “I (name), take you (name) to be my (husband/wife), my partner in life and my one true love. I will cherish our union and love you more each day than I did the day before. I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together. I give you my hand, my heart, and my love, from this day forward for as long as we both shall live,” look into the mirror, maybe put your right hand across to your heart and ask yourself if that is what you really want. Promises last a lifetime, it doesn’t stop just because you say so, or when you stop feeling like it.
One of my closer friend is in this love crisis where the ex-boyfriend decides to insult him for being shameless as he borrowed a little sum of money, and is making the effort to return it now. The once lovey-dovey couple of the past now decides to stop loving each other and start hating. How vulnerable can love be? It set me thinking, that a love that is claimed so perfect, will be a love that is not earthly. Earthly creatures like us can never be perfect when it comes to feelings involving such sacrilege. L, if you’re reading this, it’s time to walk away. Find your way back home.
The ironies of love; one can’t deny the existence. “I don't know how I found you,
I'm thankful that I have, now that I have a love so true, to hold, to keep, to share. In my heart I can no longer hold inside all of the love I used to hide. I'll always be with you until the very end.” Sweet nothings can only get you so far, once you run out of them, without a sincere and pure heart for attachment, that’s it.
A mother may feel that she’s loving the child by educating him to be more independent, to get him to start ironing his own clothes, pay his own bills, or even throw his shoes outside of the house early in the morning on the day of her pre-menstrual syndrome (PMS), but please do keep in mind that life is all about perceptions. When you decide to diss your child because he can’t get into a university or he switches jobs perpetually, you are creating such an impression that you perceive him as a useless being, someone who doesn’t deserve any respect. Once the self-confidence level is down, it’s going to be very difficult to be built up again. He might have to live with the continuous conscious that as compared to others, he is not that wise, not that adorable, and not that capable.
For those who haven’t realized, I’m talking about myself earlier. Frankly, I am not confident in continuing my life with that emotional state of mind. Someone used to say, “Teenagers nowadays are finding love in all the wrong places, they’ve got to learn to get a grip of themselves.” Though I’m not like a teenager anymore, yeah I totally feel for that statement. Looking at things from another angle, perhaps there’s more to teenagers who are finding love. Every creature which is born, even animals, has the right to love and to be loved. When things don’t come from the natural source, they just have to find uncommon sources to replenish what’s lacking in their life. It's your God forsaken right to be in love.
Then I was saying, it’s all about perspectives. To defy nature, you just have to work harder, and of course, I’ll grow up and learn to be on my own. I should be fine, and people, we shall see.
P.S. Life, love, whatever. It's just about how well you can self-contradict.
The unforeseen future is something people describe as so fearsome, so direful, and so tremendously redoubtable. Before you say, “I (name), take you (name) to be my (husband/wife), my partner in life and my one true love. I will cherish our union and love you more each day than I did the day before. I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together. I give you my hand, my heart, and my love, from this day forward for as long as we both shall live,” look into the mirror, maybe put your right hand across to your heart and ask yourself if that is what you really want. Promises last a lifetime, it doesn’t stop just because you say so, or when you stop feeling like it.
One of my closer friend is in this love crisis where the ex-boyfriend decides to insult him for being shameless as he borrowed a little sum of money, and is making the effort to return it now. The once lovey-dovey couple of the past now decides to stop loving each other and start hating. How vulnerable can love be? It set me thinking, that a love that is claimed so perfect, will be a love that is not earthly. Earthly creatures like us can never be perfect when it comes to feelings involving such sacrilege. L, if you’re reading this, it’s time to walk away. Find your way back home.
The ironies of love; one can’t deny the existence. “I don't know how I found you,
I'm thankful that I have, now that I have a love so true, to hold, to keep, to share. In my heart I can no longer hold inside all of the love I used to hide. I'll always be with you until the very end.” Sweet nothings can only get you so far, once you run out of them, without a sincere and pure heart for attachment, that’s it.
A mother may feel that she’s loving the child by educating him to be more independent, to get him to start ironing his own clothes, pay his own bills, or even throw his shoes outside of the house early in the morning on the day of her pre-menstrual syndrome (PMS), but please do keep in mind that life is all about perceptions. When you decide to diss your child because he can’t get into a university or he switches jobs perpetually, you are creating such an impression that you perceive him as a useless being, someone who doesn’t deserve any respect. Once the self-confidence level is down, it’s going to be very difficult to be built up again. He might have to live with the continuous conscious that as compared to others, he is not that wise, not that adorable, and not that capable.
For those who haven’t realized, I’m talking about myself earlier. Frankly, I am not confident in continuing my life with that emotional state of mind. Someone used to say, “Teenagers nowadays are finding love in all the wrong places, they’ve got to learn to get a grip of themselves.” Though I’m not like a teenager anymore, yeah I totally feel for that statement. Looking at things from another angle, perhaps there’s more to teenagers who are finding love. Every creature which is born, even animals, has the right to love and to be loved. When things don’t come from the natural source, they just have to find uncommon sources to replenish what’s lacking in their life. It's your God forsaken right to be in love.
Then I was saying, it’s all about perspectives. To defy nature, you just have to work harder, and of course, I’ll grow up and learn to be on my own. I should be fine, and people, we shall see.
P.S. Life, love, whatever. It's just about how well you can self-contradict.
Are You Ga(me)?, 9:16 PM.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
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Charles Darwin proposed that emotions and emotional expressions of living creatures in the world, had become refined through natural selection. However, he considered that emotions in adult humans were no longer very functional; we show expressions though they may not be the least of use. I would absolutely agree to that statement, at least when I’m talking about my own emotions.
I thought human emotions are somewhat akin to other vestigial organs or parts of the body, such as the appendix in the digestive system, a non-functional evolutionary hang over from times when they did have utility. This dismissal of emotions merely continued the tradition, and I’m always thinking, if I could convert my bank of emotions all to cash, I would be a pretty wealthy boy now. Of course, that’s not gonna happen, at least for now. Common emotions in the fag world are insecurities and bitched-up attitudes these people have.
Perhaps just one day, I shall revisit the soul of a child, whose mind is ever so innocent, so pure, being forced to live the mundane life of school and play yet not complaining much about it, silently enjoying the fact that he gets to play with everyone in school. In the world without politics, fears and lusts, essence of each individuals’ life seems so crystal clear. Maybe then, I can be in the arms of the angel, and fly away from here… and solve that emotive dissonance that has been bugging me for so long.
I thought human emotions are somewhat akin to other vestigial organs or parts of the body, such as the appendix in the digestive system, a non-functional evolutionary hang over from times when they did have utility. This dismissal of emotions merely continued the tradition, and I’m always thinking, if I could convert my bank of emotions all to cash, I would be a pretty wealthy boy now. Of course, that’s not gonna happen, at least for now. Common emotions in the fag world are insecurities and bitched-up attitudes these people have.
Perhaps just one day, I shall revisit the soul of a child, whose mind is ever so innocent, so pure, being forced to live the mundane life of school and play yet not complaining much about it, silently enjoying the fact that he gets to play with everyone in school. In the world without politics, fears and lusts, essence of each individuals’ life seems so crystal clear. Maybe then, I can be in the arms of the angel, and fly away from here… and solve that emotive dissonance that has been bugging me for so long.
Are You Ga(me)?, 12:55 PM.
Friday, July 04, 2008
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chillax session with zhi hua and peii! Haha, aft so long, we finally met up..
Are You Ga(me)?, 9:36 PM.
