Welcome to my blog once again. Went to Hope church during Easter eve, met quite a number of friends. There was this guy(sorry I forgot ur name) same age as me, his dressing was damn odd. He still dressed like a kid in sec 1 or something similar. Kekez.. I’m bad, but just couldn’t stop laughing to myself. He had well outgrown his clothes. Xue ting was quite funny, giggling non stop at my lame jokes. Although they were lame, at least she was laughing.. Haha. Time and again, Colin wants me to invite Christ as my personal Saviour. It’s not that I dun want, but I just cannot put down my past.
If I were to become a believer, won’t I be making Christianity a laughing stock? Confusion. What should I do? Seriously, I do feel home at church. I find that the people there are very different. They seem more accepting, more easily approachable. Most importantly, they put others before themselves. There seem to be so much to learn from them. People like Jeremy, Colin, Ke Han, Duckie. All branded apparels seem to be dust in front of them. They are so filled. Internally and not only externally like me, an empty shell. If I have a choice, I rather spend more time with those people in church than to stay at home to face my |GFN| parents.
There’s one thing that I still don’t understand. If believers are the children of God, and that they are forgiven no matter what wrong they had done, then won’t it encourage people to do more wrong things? And what has righteousness and justification have to do with the forgiving of sins and the transfer of prison from sin to righteousness on Mount Zion? Blur.
Ke Han is very pro in pool, think should ask me to be my “shi fu”. LoL.. Still can’t believe that I lost to Ritchie the other time. Time to brush up my skills! Piano exam is coming nearer and nearer. I can’t seem to be able to concentrate on practicing. I love my pieces, but I hate the scales. Stupid me, still cannot master the fingering for Arabesque No. 1 in E minor by Debussy.
I seem to be avoiding Sean a lot. Is it because I know very well that I did him wrong so I purposely isolate myself from him? I reject all calls, ignore all messages sent. I avoid him jus like avoiding James. Hmmz..why does this happen? Now there’s another E. Am I ready to invite E into my life to share my ups and downs?
I am drifting away from Andrew. I can see that. Conversations on phone were avoided because of his high HP bill. Do I still have a place to seat comfortably? Or am I being chased down the train because of not being able to pay the train ticket? Just like in Aichi, you have to pay 300yen more to sit in the train. We promised to be brothers forever. Can we still honour that promise? Are we still able to? I misunderstood my relationship with him. I always thought that I know him very well. The truth is, I am deceiving myself. I wanted to be close to him for I want to share his problems like he shared mine. I did much, I sacrificed much, even the most important thing to a person. Am I still not doing enough?
Can I believe in “finders keepers, losers weepers?” I picked up $50 from the floor and happily put into my pocket. Was quite guilty after that, didn’t know if I had done the correct thing. Nicholasà Victorious Heart. Colinà Victorious Spirit. No wonder we can click so well when we chat with each other. Jimmy, try to work things out with him ok? I don’t want to see your efforts go down to the drain. I know you both love each other. Cool down before working things out bahz. When one party raises his voice, the other should lower his voice and vice versa. As such, you can’t find fault and quarrel with each other. In a relationship, there’s nothing called “face” (mian zi).
“Seek first the righteousness of God and His righteousness , and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
Are You Ga(me)?, 10:39 PM.
You have a beautiful soul. You are helpful and are
kind. You put others ahead of you. You are
bound to get far! You tend to put yourself
second though and that's not good either.
People sometimes take advantage of you and you
don't want to want them to know that you know
so you act as if nothing is going on. Don't let
people walk all over you; draw the line. But
over all you are a very nice person. ^_^
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Are You Ga(me)?, 10:31 PM.