Monday, January 31, 2005
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Mission Completed. I sold both 6260(s) in two consecutive days. The second one was sold at $530. Great right? Went out with Andrew kor yesterday. We went to city hall to sell the phone, then went to Yu Jia Zhuang Seafood Restaurant for lunch, then to V club spa.
I don’t really like Jasper(a guy who works at V Club). He gives me the impression of being very desperate, on the other hand, Terry, although looks beng, is actually a very nice guy. *I think so* Stupid Jasper. Giving those lame excuses to hug me. Bloody bugger! “Eh, they say you fat leh. Let me see.” Then he come from behind to hug me, then press my stomach. Fuck man!
Terry very cool wor. Although he is extremely rich, he don’t even have the snobbish kind of attitude. Still eats at hawker centers, food courts. Four of us went for “lunner” (lunch + dinner) yesterday. Andrew and Jasper were talking non-stop. Only terry and I sat there eating quietly. Guess I also have the cool look like him.
Andrew’s still the best lar. LoLZ. “Kor ah, given u everything le. Must treat me better ok? HeEz. I think you can go to any pharmacy to buy something to paste on your hand to ease your muscle ache.” Lunch was very enjoyable, except for the damn sickening, low class yu jia zhuang waitress from china. She was so inefficient, acts as though her boyfriend just left her, looking so haggard and not concentrating on what she is suppose to do. The food was lousy yesterday too.
Andrew is so cute. He said that if the bill exceeds a certain budget, he won’t go out with me anymore. The bill really exceeded by $0.10. He fought with me to pay that amount. I don’t have a ten cent coin, so lost to him. Then he said, “Now I can go out with you le.” Adorable hor..
Didn’t manage to see the cute girl at Fish and Co. yesterday. Thought she was there, then wanna let Andrew judge my taste. Haha.. Sure very good one. She looked so familiar, like I’ve seen her somewhere before. Never mind, one of these days, I’ll go there to see her again!
Happy yesterday wor. Can I turn back the time and stay forever at yesterday? Or I’ll pray to be happy everyday!
I don’t really like Jasper(a guy who works at V Club). He gives me the impression of being very desperate, on the other hand, Terry, although looks beng, is actually a very nice guy. *I think so* Stupid Jasper. Giving those lame excuses to hug me. Bloody bugger! “Eh, they say you fat leh. Let me see.” Then he come from behind to hug me, then press my stomach. Fuck man!
Terry very cool wor. Although he is extremely rich, he don’t even have the snobbish kind of attitude. Still eats at hawker centers, food courts. Four of us went for “lunner” (lunch + dinner) yesterday. Andrew and Jasper were talking non-stop. Only terry and I sat there eating quietly. Guess I also have the cool look like him.
Andrew’s still the best lar. LoLZ. “Kor ah, given u everything le. Must treat me better ok? HeEz. I think you can go to any pharmacy to buy something to paste on your hand to ease your muscle ache.” Lunch was very enjoyable, except for the damn sickening, low class yu jia zhuang waitress from china. She was so inefficient, acts as though her boyfriend just left her, looking so haggard and not concentrating on what she is suppose to do. The food was lousy yesterday too.
Andrew is so cute. He said that if the bill exceeds a certain budget, he won’t go out with me anymore. The bill really exceeded by $0.10. He fought with me to pay that amount. I don’t have a ten cent coin, so lost to him. Then he said, “Now I can go out with you le.” Adorable hor..
Didn’t manage to see the cute girl at Fish and Co. yesterday. Thought she was there, then wanna let Andrew judge my taste. Haha.. Sure very good one. She looked so familiar, like I’ve seen her somewhere before. Never mind, one of these days, I’ll go there to see her again!
Happy yesterday wor. Can I turn back the time and stay forever at yesterday? Or I’ll pray to be happy everyday!
Are You Ga(me)?, 8:21 AM.
Saturday, January 29, 2005
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Can’t sleep. Only slept for 4 hrs. Still pondering over what was said. I’m naïve. I’m self-centered. I’m irritating. Come to think of it, whatever xiao ke ai said was really true. I only care for my feelings, and I only cared for my happiness => Self-centered. I painted such a beautiful picture of us being happy, and I always believed in that. However, in reality, this will never happen => Naïve. I try to take time off to phone every night, checking if xiao ke ai had been happy or whatsoever. => Irritating. Verdict: Criticism justified.
“Neng an wei zi ji de ren bi jiao rong yi kuai le” Is this the reason why I always console myself? I hate this song. At least for now. It is because of this, hat resulted in me being so naïve, so irritating, so self-centered. I wasn’t given a chance, but is perseverance wrong? I’m always thought to fight for my own happiness, but it seems that this person here I’m talking about only wants nature to take its course. A long and tedious wait. Again. Will the result satisfy me?
Frozen heart. Ezekiel said, “There isn’t anything called a frozen heart. If so, you won’t donate to the victims of the disaster.” This is only in one instance. Does it prove anything? I think otherwise. It can only show that probably 5% of the heart thawed. Trivial matters. Why am I so bothered by it? It just shows that I have got nothing better to do to involve myself in such “entangling” matters. Preposterous! Verdict: 95% is still frozen.
Out of the blue, da ke ai appeared on 16 Jan 2005. Really adorable. I’m treated so well, yet I did such things so sabotage, all for the sake of myself. => Self-centered. The “sticky” attitude doesn’t work on xiao ke ai. What kind of attitude to adopt when relating to da ke ai? Will I still be getting the same old phrases? The damn problem is: I don’t even know da ke ai’s identity! Andrew kor ah.. I bring u there, u judge for me can not?
I visited da ke ai yesterday. Chatted for quite long. All about other stuffs except what I want to find out. Mission not completed. Result: regret, upset. What if what was said is not what I want to hear? Am I being tested? Or that is only a casual remark.. Is my identity being questioned too? Thomas said that this is only a possibility. However, da ke ai just seem so familiar and so near yet so far. Should I be the one who initiate? Should I stay put in my present position just go all out to intrude?
Can somebody out there tell me what the hell should I do? I took advantage of da ke ai yesterday again. Breach of trust. What will happened if I’m not bothered anymore? Will I get my desserts? Soon. Definitely. Retribution is on the way. Da ke ai, I’m sorry ok? Forgive me. Is it possible to send me your picture? Will I see u in tampines today?
“I”, “me”, “myself”. Taboo words. These words cause my to quarrel with xiao ke ai, and all thanks to these words, I’m ignored. Should I use “we”, “us”, “ourselves” in the first place? It’s to late to realize now. Too pissed off to talk to me le. Can someone talk to me?? Hello!! Anyone there? Isn’t there anyone around?
Why do I have to swallow criticisms that are not true from the “superior” adults? Are they given the priviledge to give unjustifiable, crude remarks? Women. Nothing but trouble. I dunno if this applies to others, but it definitely is the case in my family. Forever so many problems with them. Petty, miserly, always concerned of their face. WTF! What good have I done to receive such wonderful rewards? Hopefully it will get over and done with.
Xiao ke ai, I’ll still persevere de. You can never shake me off, unless I die. I’m gonna fight for the sake of us.
“Neng an wei zi ji de ren bi jiao rong yi kuai le” Is this the reason why I always console myself? I hate this song. At least for now. It is because of this, hat resulted in me being so naïve, so irritating, so self-centered. I wasn’t given a chance, but is perseverance wrong? I’m always thought to fight for my own happiness, but it seems that this person here I’m talking about only wants nature to take its course. A long and tedious wait. Again. Will the result satisfy me?
Frozen heart. Ezekiel said, “There isn’t anything called a frozen heart. If so, you won’t donate to the victims of the disaster.” This is only in one instance. Does it prove anything? I think otherwise. It can only show that probably 5% of the heart thawed. Trivial matters. Why am I so bothered by it? It just shows that I have got nothing better to do to involve myself in such “entangling” matters. Preposterous! Verdict: 95% is still frozen.
Out of the blue, da ke ai appeared on 16 Jan 2005. Really adorable. I’m treated so well, yet I did such things so sabotage, all for the sake of myself. => Self-centered. The “sticky” attitude doesn’t work on xiao ke ai. What kind of attitude to adopt when relating to da ke ai? Will I still be getting the same old phrases? The damn problem is: I don’t even know da ke ai’s identity! Andrew kor ah.. I bring u there, u judge for me can not?
I visited da ke ai yesterday. Chatted for quite long. All about other stuffs except what I want to find out. Mission not completed. Result: regret, upset. What if what was said is not what I want to hear? Am I being tested? Or that is only a casual remark.. Is my identity being questioned too? Thomas said that this is only a possibility. However, da ke ai just seem so familiar and so near yet so far. Should I be the one who initiate? Should I stay put in my present position just go all out to intrude?
Can somebody out there tell me what the hell should I do? I took advantage of da ke ai yesterday again. Breach of trust. What will happened if I’m not bothered anymore? Will I get my desserts? Soon. Definitely. Retribution is on the way. Da ke ai, I’m sorry ok? Forgive me. Is it possible to send me your picture? Will I see u in tampines today?
“I”, “me”, “myself”. Taboo words. These words cause my to quarrel with xiao ke ai, and all thanks to these words, I’m ignored. Should I use “we”, “us”, “ourselves” in the first place? It’s to late to realize now. Too pissed off to talk to me le. Can someone talk to me?? Hello!! Anyone there? Isn’t there anyone around?
Why do I have to swallow criticisms that are not true from the “superior” adults? Are they given the priviledge to give unjustifiable, crude remarks? Women. Nothing but trouble. I dunno if this applies to others, but it definitely is the case in my family. Forever so many problems with them. Petty, miserly, always concerned of their face. WTF! What good have I done to receive such wonderful rewards? Hopefully it will get over and done with.
Xiao ke ai, I’ll still persevere de. You can never shake me off, unless I die. I’m gonna fight for the sake of us.
Are You Ga(me)?, 9:07 AM.
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
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| You Are 16 Years Old |
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
Are You Ga(me)?, 11:23 PM.
Saturday, January 15, 2005
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Are You Ga(me)?, 10:05 PM.
Friday, January 14, 2005
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silence.. is it good or bad? hmmz....
Are You Ga(me)?, 11:52 PM.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
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sorry, i cannot accpet your love
pls don't think of loving me le. i can't return the love
those kind of love is not reliable de lor
cannot means cannot mahz
sorry ar
all these phrases again.. AGAIN? useless ren^zhe...
pls don't think of loving me le. i can't return the love
those kind of love is not reliable de lor
cannot means cannot mahz
sorry ar
all these phrases again.. AGAIN? useless ren^zhe...
Are You Ga(me)?, 9:48 PM.
Sales at Terron was wonderful today. I ended the day with a total sales of $64.80. OK lar.. Not very good. However, in the month of January, today is the best so far. Besides that, BAD DAY.
Had a headache after I woke up. Not the normal one lor, a terrible one. Thought it was ok to go to work, who knows, in the afternoon, the headache come back again. Fortunately, BT and GP close their shop early today. At least no spying activity behind me. Haha. I know I’m evil, but I don’t give a damn. Closed the shop early today. As mentioned, not feeling well. The Swatch shop at Suntec called in the after noon and told me to go collect the newly replaced skin watch. I chose the white one lar. Simple but elegant.
Haiz.. Wei Xuan didi off his phone the whole day again. Didn’t on the phone until now. Wonder if he missed me. Hmmz… haha. Don’t think so much lar. Erm.. the “eccentricity” come out again. Still having the headache now. My observation tells me that Wilson and Jowy didi are close. Wonder if that’s true. Stupid Wilson. Rather go for the Phantom of the Opera with Jowy than me.. Haiz.. Jealous le.. Finally, after a loooong wait, 16 jan coming le.. kYo, u shd know why hor. I’m still deciding where to go for lunch. U got any suggestion? Msg me wor..
THE INCREDIBLE POWER OF BELIEFS: Beliefs can make ordinary people do awesome, extraordinary things but holding on to limiting beliefs can also cripple the most talented.
Had a headache after I woke up. Not the normal one lor, a terrible one. Thought it was ok to go to work, who knows, in the afternoon, the headache come back again. Fortunately, BT and GP close their shop early today. At least no spying activity behind me. Haha. I know I’m evil, but I don’t give a damn. Closed the shop early today. As mentioned, not feeling well. The Swatch shop at Suntec called in the after noon and told me to go collect the newly replaced skin watch. I chose the white one lar. Simple but elegant.
Haiz.. Wei Xuan didi off his phone the whole day again. Didn’t on the phone until now. Wonder if he missed me. Hmmz… haha. Don’t think so much lar. Erm.. the “eccentricity” come out again. Still having the headache now. My observation tells me that Wilson and Jowy didi are close. Wonder if that’s true. Stupid Wilson. Rather go for the Phantom of the Opera with Jowy than me.. Haiz.. Jealous le.. Finally, after a loooong wait, 16 jan coming le.. kYo, u shd know why hor. I’m still deciding where to go for lunch. U got any suggestion? Msg me wor..
THE INCREDIBLE POWER OF BELIEFS: Beliefs can make ordinary people do awesome, extraordinary things but holding on to limiting beliefs can also cripple the most talented.
Are You Ga(me)?, 9:00 PM.
Monday, January 10, 2005
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Terrible day today. Haiz.. Still missing that someone. Anyway, I’d written one song for the special one.. haha.. hope you know who you are lor.. =X
Verse 1: 我这里天已经黑了
我这里下起了大雨
我和以前不同了 不再哭了
那里呢 还好吗
Verse 2: 你一句话也不说了
你也没有再约我了
在这里猜测心情 感觉空虚
你是否 在想我
Chorus: 想着你 没有你 似乎少了些什么东西
闭上眼 想象跟你幸福在一起
快了左转 思念右转 我的心情象海浪
望着天 你的样子浮现脑海里
Bridge: 我会一直默默守候
希望有朝一日你能发现我
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ren^zhe
Verse 1: 我这里天已经黑了
我这里下起了大雨
我和以前不同了 不再哭了
那里呢 还好吗
Verse 2: 你一句话也不说了
你也没有再约我了
在这里猜测心情 感觉空虚
你是否 在想我
Chorus: 想着你 没有你 似乎少了些什么东西
闭上眼 想象跟你幸福在一起
快了左转 思念右转 我的心情象海浪
望着天 你的样子浮现脑海里
Bridge: 我会一直默默守候
希望有朝一日你能发现我
copyright (c)
ren^zhe
Are You Ga(me)?, 9:57 PM.
Sunday, January 09, 2005
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1st January 2005. A day I will never be able to forget (I guess so..). A day of agony.. What a way to start the new year! It was a Saturday.
Flashback:
I was sitting across the corridor which leads to the bedroom at home. My brother sat across my door frame and my mum sat along the corridor. My brother already buay song because he cannot have a room to himself. He kiao his leg on my bedroom door frame which I had already cleaned. I told him to put his leg down. He didn’t give a damn. I pushed his leg down. He placed his leg back to the original position again. I told him to put it down but to no avail, so I kicked his leg. (my mum was sitting near us and my “dad” was lying on the bed). He screamed and put his leg back again. This time round, I jus kicked it away. This “process” repeated until my mum finally scolded him.
Thinking that the commotion had already ended, I walked towards the kitchen to heat up the porridge for tea. There and then, my “dad” came out with a cane. Mind you! A CANE. He came to the kitchen door and yelled for me to go out. Given my personality, I’ll never do so. After I heated the porridge, I went out, with him still standing there. He started to cane me. Hey, I’m 16 u know? I grabbed the cane and throw it one side. It was an easy job as my “dad” is smaller size than me.
I walked back to my room. Who knows? He came to assault me from behind., strangling my neck. I was almost suffocating, but I pushed him away. He came and strangled me again. This time round, using more strength. In the end, I got to choice but to trip him to save myself. Commotion ended.
Con’t:
Do you think this is what a father should do? Wow! Assaulting your child. I’m like so pissed of and so mad. After second thoughts, I felt that it’s time I do something to protect myself. I already promised myself that if he does the same thing or something else alike again, I’ll go to the police to apply for the order of protection. Bo bian lor.. Send him to jail if the need arises. Since then, I did not talk to him until now. Not planning to reconcile in the near future bahz. What do you guys think? What a day..
Today I went out again because I don’t want to stay at home with that old man. Supposed to go watch the Phantom of the Opera with toshi. End up he go clubbing overnight then this morning too tired to go. Disappointed lor.. Douglas kor still say hope that I got tian tian de story to tell him when I come back from my date. Everything thrashed lar.. Dun need to say anything le. Good lor.. Save my handphone battery.
So sick of it. Once I step into the door, my money sucking mum immediately come to demand for payment for the singtel access charge. Counted every single cent to specifically. Good for her. Dunno what did I do wrong in my past life to deserve such punishment now. It’s like What the Fuck lor.. Juz step in only wanna ask for money. Haiz. Forget it lar. I also cannot do anything le. Pay her lor.. $250 u know? To me it is such a huge sum. Three months of internet charges. She play cheat one lar. Those she use also make me pay. Sianz.. dun tok le lar. So exhausted..
*thinking of hugging Andrew kor kor to sleep*
Dun get disgusted.. I’ll sleep better when I feel secure. Then can get rid of the ugly dark rings. Too bad lar hor.. now I very insecure de. Anyone else dare to hug me to sleep? LoLZ... =X
Flashback:
I was sitting across the corridor which leads to the bedroom at home. My brother sat across my door frame and my mum sat along the corridor. My brother already buay song because he cannot have a room to himself. He kiao his leg on my bedroom door frame which I had already cleaned. I told him to put his leg down. He didn’t give a damn. I pushed his leg down. He placed his leg back to the original position again. I told him to put it down but to no avail, so I kicked his leg. (my mum was sitting near us and my “dad” was lying on the bed). He screamed and put his leg back again. This time round, I jus kicked it away. This “process” repeated until my mum finally scolded him.
Thinking that the commotion had already ended, I walked towards the kitchen to heat up the porridge for tea. There and then, my “dad” came out with a cane. Mind you! A CANE. He came to the kitchen door and yelled for me to go out. Given my personality, I’ll never do so. After I heated the porridge, I went out, with him still standing there. He started to cane me. Hey, I’m 16 u know? I grabbed the cane and throw it one side. It was an easy job as my “dad” is smaller size than me.
I walked back to my room. Who knows? He came to assault me from behind., strangling my neck. I was almost suffocating, but I pushed him away. He came and strangled me again. This time round, using more strength. In the end, I got to choice but to trip him to save myself. Commotion ended.
Con’t:
Do you think this is what a father should do? Wow! Assaulting your child. I’m like so pissed of and so mad. After second thoughts, I felt that it’s time I do something to protect myself. I already promised myself that if he does the same thing or something else alike again, I’ll go to the police to apply for the order of protection. Bo bian lor.. Send him to jail if the need arises. Since then, I did not talk to him until now. Not planning to reconcile in the near future bahz. What do you guys think? What a day..
Today I went out again because I don’t want to stay at home with that old man. Supposed to go watch the Phantom of the Opera with toshi. End up he go clubbing overnight then this morning too tired to go. Disappointed lor.. Douglas kor still say hope that I got tian tian de story to tell him when I come back from my date. Everything thrashed lar.. Dun need to say anything le. Good lor.. Save my handphone battery.
So sick of it. Once I step into the door, my money sucking mum immediately come to demand for payment for the singtel access charge. Counted every single cent to specifically. Good for her. Dunno what did I do wrong in my past life to deserve such punishment now. It’s like What the Fuck lor.. Juz step in only wanna ask for money. Haiz. Forget it lar. I also cannot do anything le. Pay her lor.. $250 u know? To me it is such a huge sum. Three months of internet charges. She play cheat one lar. Those she use also make me pay. Sianz.. dun tok le lar. So exhausted..
*thinking of hugging Andrew kor kor to sleep*
Dun get disgusted.. I’ll sleep better when I feel secure. Then can get rid of the ugly dark rings. Too bad lar hor.. now I very insecure de. Anyone else dare to hug me to sleep? LoLZ... =X
Are You Ga(me)?, 8:55 PM.
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
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"A pessimist is one who makes difficulties of his opportunitiesand an optimist is one who makes opportunities of his difficulties. -- Harry Truman"
Are You Ga(me)?, 10:22 PM.
Monday, January 03, 2005
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Plant five rows of peas:
Patience,
Perseverance,
Preparation,
Planning and Positiveness
Include three rows of Squash:
Squash Negativity,
Squash Dieting,
Squash Deprivation
Add four rows of lettuce:
Let us be Positive,
Let us be Responsible,
Let us reward our Accomplishments,
Let us be Empowered
No garden is complete without Turnips:
Turn up with a Positive Attitude,
Turn up with New Ideas,
Turn up with Real Determination,
Turn up with Success
May your garden flourish!
source: unknown
Patience,
Perseverance,
Preparation,
Planning and Positiveness
Include three rows of Squash:
Squash Negativity,
Squash Dieting,
Squash Deprivation
Add four rows of lettuce:
Let us be Positive,
Let us be Responsible,
Let us reward our Accomplishments,
Let us be Empowered
No garden is complete without Turnips:
Turn up with a Positive Attitude,
Turn up with New Ideas,
Turn up with Real Determination,
Turn up with Success
May your garden flourish!
source: unknown
Are You Ga(me)?, 10:39 PM.
Back. Monday blues. Sales was poor at Terron today. Only managed to make a total sale of SGD39.90. I had a lot of free time too. Sigh. This business is really a failure. Since May when it opened, operators have been losing money. Did a quick calculation. In order to break even, it’ll take at least 4 years and by then, u’ll have to lose 80-100k FIRST.
God hasn’t been fair to me on the first day of the new year. Didn’t know what did I do wrong do deserve such retribution. Was it a test? Was it something else. Anyway, all I can say is that I nearly died on that day. Don’t wish to elaborate anymore. For some heartless people out there, u know who u are. U will have a chance to taste your own desserts.
New Year Resolution 2005
*Read more books
*Love my mummy, my kor and my di more
*Study harder
*Live for myself healthily
*Eat and sleep well
*Find a true love
*Build a killer body.. (heh heh, dun drool wor)
God hasn’t been fair to me on the first day of the new year. Didn’t know what did I do wrong do deserve such retribution. Was it a test? Was it something else. Anyway, all I can say is that I nearly died on that day. Don’t wish to elaborate anymore. For some heartless people out there, u know who u are. U will have a chance to taste your own desserts.
New Year Resolution 2005
*Read more books
*Love my mummy, my kor and my di more
*Study harder
*Live for myself healthily
*Eat and sleep well
*Find a true love
*Build a killer body.. (heh heh, dun drool wor)
Are You Ga(me)?, 10:37 PM.
Sunday, January 02, 2005
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Sorry, guys for the disappearance. Will be here tmr to blog.
here's one good phrase
"Je Vis de Bonne Soup et Non de Beau Langage"
"i live on good food and not beautiful language"
here's one good phrase
"Je Vis de Bonne Soup et Non de Beau Langage"
"i live on good food and not beautiful language"
Are You Ga(me)?, 9:52 PM.
